TO FIND OURSELVES, WE MUST FIRST LOSE OURSELVES. SUCH IS THE GREAT PARADOX AND THE GREAT MYSTERY OF THE SPIRITUAL AND SACRED QUEST. WE ARE FOREVER IN THE GREAT SPIRITUAL AND MYSTICAL QUEST THAT UNVEILS FOR US AND AWAKENS IN US THE ALL ENCOMPASSING SACREDNESS OF OUR TRUE SELVES AND OUR SACRED ONENESS WITH THE ALL THAT WE CALL GOD. TO FIND OURSELVES WE MUST FIRST LOSE OURSELVES AND TO LOSE OURSELVES IS TO FIND OURSELVES ONE WITH THE ALL: NOT LOST, BUT MYSTICALLY AND SPIRITUALLY FOUND IN THE PROFOUND ONENESS OF THE SACRED CREATION.
The spiritual quest is driven by self. At the door that guards the quest’s end, self must be transcended. The door’s key is always selfless love for ALL. The old myths give clear signals about the path of test and ordeal towards initiation and ultimate spiritual fulfilment. The importance of Christ is that he showed that at the heart of this process, alongside bravery and virtue etc. is selfless love. Christ demonstrated through His crucifixion, the key, the final key, to the mysteries. We need the ancient virtues as we set out on our quest, but the final door, the final test can only be opened or won when the whole purpose of the quest is turned in on itself, when the pursuit almost becomes meaningless as the seeker stands at the door and no longer desires to pass, other than through his or her selfless love for all creation, as something done for them alone. The original purposes and desires of the seeker are necessarily lost at the very moment of triumph. But it is in that moment of loss, invariably felt as a soul-shattering and cataclysmic tragedy, that everything is gained.
We are seeking, in our own ways, to be pilgrims upon the spiritual, mystical and sacred path – the sacred mystical quest. Yet ultimately our very presence upon that quest, is a precursor, almost, to a negation of ourselves. And yet at the same time, it culminates utterly in our SELF. Our spiritual purpose and destiny is to walk the sacred way of pilgrimage,. And at our pilgrimage’s end to utterly surrender ourselves to OTHER. It is the negation of the self we have always been and known, but it is only the negation of our lesser self. For in losing ourselves we in fact find at last our true SELF. And our true SELF is the manifestation of ONE fundamental truth: that ALL is ONE. This does not mean that our ultimate spiritual destiny is to become subsumed into the impersonality of the whole, it is in fact to at last be gloriously our true SELF, our true SELF that is ONE with the ALL, that feels and loves and knows all things, all of Creation: and above all, our very selves: our very true SELVES.
To find ourselves, we must first lose ourselves. And in losing ourselves we find our true SELF that is free of conflict and doubt; free of all the things than can trouble us. For in a sense, we become ALL things, and so the intrinsic and inevitable pains of separation become inconceivable.
When we are ONE with the ALL, all our fellows are our beloved. When we are ONE with the ALL, we are spiritually awakened to everyone and everything. To walk the meadows and wooded glades of our Mother Earth, our sacred Gaia, is to be ONE with the Mother, ONE with the living breathing Gaia, and indeed is to feel the breath and enchantment of the natural world. When we are ONE with the ALL, we cannot be anything other than healers, for our entire being is holistically aware and holistically connected. The key to healing is ONENESS and holistic connection, and when we are ONE with the ALL, we are that holistic connectedness made manifest in our very being.
Our pilgrimage can be hard. To first lose ourselves at our journey’s end, is a terrible and all-consuming mystical death. But the rebirth of ourselves into ONENESS is glorious.
The spiritual quest is driven by SELF.
At the door that guards the quest’s end:
SELF is transcended.
The door’s key?
Surrender to OTHER.
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